Slimfast...hmmm

Okay, so I am starting slim fast today. I get a shake for breakfast, a shake for lunch and am supposed to eat something worth around 200 calories with it such as yogurt and fruit. Then your supposed to eat a dinner of around 500 calories. The shakes have 190 calories in. What I don't understand is at the bottom of the package it says to never consume less than 1200 calories a day. That is less than 1200 calories a day. Anyway, I did okay the first day. I ate a shake for breakfast along with a hard boiled egg to add some protein so that way i'd feel full longer. For lunch I ate yogurt and a shake. For dinner, well...I had a piece of pizza. It's roughly 500 calories lol. I ate some apple slices later. All in all it actually wasn't that hard when i wasn't focusing on being hungry. More to come later.

Just one thing...I searched google earlier for weight loss and the site came up, and it was for weightwatchers (http://www.weightwatchers.com/Util/lnd/index_39h_nd.aspx?cid=1). Thats the first thing I want to research. Fad diets...

Rough day...

The last few days have been rough...extremely so. I was taking a semester off at college in order to go through some training at work and to make some extra money working full time. Two days before the start of school I find out that the girl I was supposed to be switching hours with, doesn't want to switch hours anymore. It leaves me totally screwed. I've been to three different colleges including Penn State York trying to take at least one class. Penn state doesn't offer any of the classes I need, and the other two just weren't working with me. Ugh. Anyway to make it all worse, as soon as I feel stressed, I start eating like there is no tomorrow. Every time I eat I feel guilty which makes me feel even more stressed out. I wish I had my old metabolism back. Ever since my first 'episode' with starvation, my metabolism has been out of wack. That and I was diagnosed with hypoglycemia...

Anyway, I've decided what I want to do with this site. I'm not an expert on any of the subjects I want to talk about but I know their are enough resources on the web that I can find expert opinions and ideas and write about my findings. Perhaps I will help myself in the process. I need to start being a healthy person instead of this whole starvation thing. It's really starting to tire me otu. Last semester I took this class on Nutrition. I actually learned a lot, even considering how boring the professor was. I know exactly how to eat and work out in order to stay thin without starving myself. It's easier this way though I guess. I'm thinking of joining a gym, then I'll have another aspect to write about.

Welcome to Ashley's Guide

Hello and welcome to my blog. I suppose I should start off with some profile information and the purpose of this site. I'm basically a run of the mill 19 year old college student aspiring to be a nurse. Like every other woman, I've been struggling with my weight for a good part of my life. From the time I became aware of my body until today, what I look like is constantly on my mind. I've always been fairly petite but around 11th grade of high school I became totally obsessed with losing weight. My best friend and I decided to try to lose weight together. At the time I weighed around 110 (I'm 5'4). I began avidly excercising and skipping meals. I became so obsessed with working out that it became the highlight of my day and I found my grades slipping. It seemed the more I worked out, the less of an appetite I had. The "extra" weight quickly fell away and people around me started to notice. My parents were the first ones to say something to me about it. My mom and dad both tried to no avail to get me to eat more. They didn't know that I was going up to two days without eating at times. This went on only for a few months before I felt like my body was wasting away. I had been getting horrible leg cramps a couple times a day, I was constantly thirsty and fatigued. When I went to the doctors for a physical and my doctor saw how much weight I had lost, she gave me quite a lecture. Since then, my weight has been up and down and I find I struggle with it more and more. It's mainly a problem of not being comfortable with who I am. That leads me to the purpose of this site. I mainly want to discuss healthy ways to lose weight, maintain good mental health and to help other women out their deal with problems they may be having. I also have acid reflux disease and endometriosis. Endometriosis is when the lining of the uterus (this is what is shed every month during menunstration) grows on surfaces besides the uterus. It can be quite painful at times. I will be focusing on these two diseases and ways to deal with them as well. I am far from an expert on any of these topics, however I can discuss what I have experienced and I hope to hear feedback and ideas from everyone that reads my site as well.